Cracking

Makoto sat on the bed in the guest room of the outer senshi’s home. Earlier that night, Ami had asked if she had a secret. Unable to hide it anymore, she had confessed to her. She had confessed her love and ended up getting turned down. As she had heard Ami tell her she wasn’t ready for commitment, the girl’s heart had completely cracked down the middle. She had left the apartment, not wanting to return any time soon. She knew that Ami was going to reject her, yet it still hurt. Pulling her knees close to her chest, the brunette rested her forehead on her knees, closing her eyes and thinking. Why was she so terrible at keeping secrets when questioned? She sighed heavily. All these years she had kept it, hidden from Ami. And now…all because she couldn’t keep her mouth shut after being questioned, their friendship was ruined. She wanted to keep their friendship. That’s why she hid it. She didn’t want to lose someone else out of her life. Especially someone she held so dear.

Although she had been crying and thought her tears to be dried up by now, more tears began to flow as images of her times with Ami flowed through her mind. So many happy memories. So many wonderful times. Gritting her teeth, she grabbed the closet thing, which happened to be a digital alarm clock. hurling it at the wall, it broke, leaving a small dent. The guardian of Jupiter was so furious with herself. She had lost someone else. She had lost the one she loved more than anyone in this entire world. She was so hurt and confused. But was she angry at Ami for rejecting her? For not feeling the same? No. Makoto could never hate the blue haired bookworm. No matter what happened, no matter what she did, the brunette could never be mad at Ami. Tears began to flow down her face as she stayed curled up on the bed. She didn’t rest at all that night. So many thoughts were running through her mind. Would Ami want to continue living with her? Was she mad at her for having such feelings for her? Would Ami still want to be her friend? Makoto sobbed silently all night, even after her tears had dried up.